A message for my heart

Today at work one of the guys I work with said something to me that really surprised me. We were coming into the office after a cold snowy morning reading meters. We were commenting on the weather and about our loss of jobs. The humor was light as we joked around.

Charter looked over at me and said, "Out of my 32 years here, and working with all these people, I'm going to miss you the most." He turned and flashed a smile. You have been fun to work with and are so interesting. You have achieved so much in your life, none of these people come close to what you have accomplished." As he spoke his arms were stretched out wide as to gester to all those around us.

I looked over at him and thanked him, told him he was going to make me cry. He smiled and went out of the office.

When I started this job, this man would not even speak to me. He was in his late 50's and really kept to himself, not sharing information, or speaking much at all. He had worked 30 years with some of these people, they did not know a thing about him. He didn't offer, and others didn't ask. Until me.

I think I brought him out of his shell, and let me tell you, I still did not know much about this fellow I worked with daily.

He brought something to me today, a reason to be proud of who I am. Proud of what I have done. Most were not even work related, just bits and pieces of my life, risks I have taken, places I have been.

I could never see it in myself. Charter did, he said it in a way that made me believe it.

I thank him, I can move forward now, without looking behind with sorrow.

Hurry

Only a day away
and the loneliness is unbearable
How will it be if you are a year gone?

What will happen
if I am not to know again
your warm arms
your shoulder next to my face at night
our quiet talks
your tender touch
and oh God

so many things.

Hurry

On second thought?

Card 2 outside

My father had a good
Line for tightwads.
He'd tell them "You're
So tight you squeak
When you walk."
Now It's up to me to
Carry on that tradition.

Card 2 inside

You're so tight you
Squeak when you walk.

Anonymously yours

A New Career?

2 weeks ago, they told 5 of us at work they were going to lay us off.
Every minute of everyday I think...I'm going to start something new. Here is my idea.
A line of Greeting Cards called Sounding off. Cards that say it like it is!
Heres an example..tell me what you think.

Card 1 outside
Something's Missing

Card 1 inside
Ah Yes, A couple of
Old wrecked cars
Sitting on concrete
Blocks would be the
Final touch to your
Tacky yard.

Anonymously yours

Not bad huh? View Card 2 tomorrow..

With Love

I have loved you

in so many ways

in crowds or all alone.

When you were sleeping beside me.

When you were away

I've imagined others watching you in the street

or worse--you in other peoples' arms.

I have seen the march of the beach birds and loved you.

I have lent myself to summer sun and loved you.

And seeing naked trees

and raising my collar to the wind

and counting the minutes till chartered hours were there

I have loved you.

And the questions never asked,

The answers learned at love's expense.

I've promised myself

I will not ask where you have been tonight

I'll only say hello

and hope.

Such is Life

I have been sitting here, staring at this blank white page. Wondering where I stepped on that big crack in life, the one that breaks your back.

Have you seen the show the Ten Commandment? Your know the part when Moses comes down the hill after seeing God and getting the Commandments. He's pretty mad at all the people below and how they are behaving? Following me so far??

Okay, he throws the Commandments, the earth opens up and people start falling in. Some are just hanging on to the edge, and you are thinking, shit that is not good. The fire and steam are coming up and people are screaming, and holding on for their lives...

My life is similar to that everyday..